mudanza a velocidad terminal

Brian: A big fat lie is I won't come in your mouth. (QAF Episode: 405)
Recently I have been tired and sore. No, I haven't been working out a lot, or having all night fuck fests. I just have been dealing with the fact that I am in a job I have no intention of staying in for much longer. I am so ready to get out of town, explore life. Why haven't I joined Peace Corps or sold everything and seen the world? I mean granted I have seen more than most people, but I am always reminded of the line in Broken Hearts Club: every so often I swear to sell everything I know and backpack across Europe and really find myself as a photographer. Well, why the hell haven't I done that? I guess it doesn't help that I was reading Into the Wild so yeah, I have fueled my adventure mentality that has been laying dormant under my capitolist need to live a comfortable life. blah. I want to get otu, to move out, to go, to live, but I am right here sitting watching tv, getting more tired and more sad that I am not exploring life and the world. Hmmmmm, its time to rethink life kids and this time, I have to find a way to make it work.

Apariciones

"Just like Jesus, and Liza and Judy he's making a comeback..." Brian QAF Ep 403

I know its been too long, I always say that, but this time I think its time to start putting pen to paper again. Life has changed, the world as I know it has become so distant. I need to start to examining my life more. I stuck at a job I hate working toward a future I may or may not have. I don't know why but I need a change. Perhaps I always need change? I think that is the truth, whenever life seems to balance, I need upheaval. But I no longer want change through distruction...now I need to figure out how to make changes through creation.

One: Decide where I want to be in life. Check
Two: Decide how to get there...still perfecting...
Three: Do it! Not yet there.

Seems easy, so why do we as a whole not do this all the time? Why is it that I haven't done this before? Because simplicity is so hard. Try to make something simple, it isn't easy. Simplicity is so hard to us because we are creatures of over analysing, needing to complicate and finding the dificult in the facile...I have spent the last years of my research and acting/directing training trying to find simplicity, and it is still the hardest moment on stage. Its not easy to explain, and harder still to show, if you complicate...and I do...perhaps the earlier statement of we as a people do this is not true...actually it is not a blanket statement that can be made, but it can be of me. I tend to lump people in my category of problems, forgetting that we are all wired a little different. So, here is the rant of today. And the question is how can I make this more simple without complicating things.

Random flamboyantly gay moment: I can't wait to see 27 Dresses...

With Love,

Lestat