"Entertaining the 'white' folks" Emmett (QAF Episode 507)
What does it mean to be queer in America now? We have come so far now, that the younger generations feel they are just the same as the straights. Yet we are not the same...we watch Milk and think we are advocates. Is that all it takes to be an advocate now? We let go of our fight, or perhaps being from the south and seeing how slow we have come to change. It seems I have lost touch with the fight, yeah I email senators, reps and soon the President. Thanks for turning your back on the men and women in the armed services that you are discharging because they are gay. Forget the fact that 54 where trained in the Iraqi language.
Mainly, I am tired of the need to be apart of the queer ghetto...I know we should go out and populate the places we aren't in to win the elections and to vote on the laws that are equal to all citizens, but I need to get back. Rejuvenate in a sense. I am ready to live in a big city and find myself. I feel that after 27 years with all the self discoveries I have made, I still have yet to find myself, to become the man I want to become. I think Brian Kenny would call me a great homosexual, but perhaps not so much of the man I have become.
I am tired of putting things off, waiting for the right moment. I have not given up on love, but no longer looking...I'm tired of the need to create romance when there is none there, and I am not the person I want to become. I need to find myself again.
I need to find myself again...
I need to find myself again...
perhaps if I say it enough I will find myself.
I want to be inspired again, and I need to inspire myself.
Life has gotten complicated again.
I haven't run from it, but towards it and am finding I am not liking what I am running out.
So now, I am searching myself,
Finding a path and working on me.
