So yeah, celibacy, what a freaking concept. Nothing is fun about it, just fyi. It is Murphy's law that states that when you bring your umbrella out it will not rain...when you are celibate, it rains men. Over the past week I have hung out with, or flirted with, or down right almost had sex with 3 men. Ok, so maybe this is not news to anybody who has a different man every night, but considering I am in rehearsal 5 nights a week right now, working at 7:30 a.m., teaching 2 classes and running around trying to find a new day job. Needless to say, I shouldn't have time for men at all. I thought it would be easy this time to give men up. so I am passed a week am I? Who knew the man who just wanted sex, not a relationship could stop having sex? I certainly didn't think this could happen, and yet, I do find myself more focused on work, perhaps because there is so much of it. Perhaps because I am running around and have to be organized. Or perhaps, because I am not obsessing over men. On a lighter note, I am not doing so well with the exercise. I was waking up every morning meditating, jogging several blocks and then reading. I had a respiratory infection last week, which is why I spent 2 days in bed. yuck. Not fun, and yet I haven't felt the need to exercise. Perhaps because of the dancing and teaching and general running around, I don't feel I need it. My gut says otherwise, but meh, since I am not looking for a man perhaps it is ok to let it go for a little while, at least until things settle down.
I also feel very gay proud this month. Working with 2 local chapters of Gay/Straight Alliances I feel very tapped into the "Gay World." It is pride week. So it should be a time that I am feeling the pride. I just realized thought that this means I will not be able to take anyone home for pride...sad day :( oh well, just cuddle with my dog and figure it out.
Till next post.
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