Today is better

Debbie: You know, I haven't danced since the last century. (qaf ep 314)

You know, I feel so much better now that I bitched for a bit, I feel so much less stress about the situation. and who cares if I don't have a man, I haven't needed one for this long, whats the point in needing one now. I understand if its ment to be, but I just really need to focus on my patience. I am watching my three beautiful girls playing with toys and each other and I think of how blessed I am and that I am not the only one who feels this way, well surely I can't be, how many damn romantic movies have been made, and yes I am a romantic. La la la. I wish I could go out and dance tonight, it feels like forever since I have. I want to go and feel the music and dance till the night is over and the sun is coming over the hill. Not necessarily with anyone, just with a group of people I love or in a room with complete strangers, which can be fullfilling sometimes to realize no expectations or preconceived notions are around. I guess this is why I like going out to new places. Of course this is why, I get to be something a little different each time, not lying more like exploring the other parts of me. tah for now.