To my dear Rylee, I wish that Toledo had better happenings for you. I wish too for one more week. But alas, we must back to our respectable establishments. We will have drinks soon and possible a movie. It will all depend on when I can get to Toledo.
Madrid was interesting last night. I didn't have too much to drink last night. But apparently many people did. I walked into a party last night full of drunk people. Which isn't to say I haven't been in that situation before, but it was so different from the parties I was used to. My dearest S.Grey is leaving for NY and it was her going away party. I love Sarah, so of course I went. Okay, segue, I hadn't realized just how much weight I had lost until recently. At the party, maybe I was wrong, but all the gay boys there hit on me. I might be conceited, but I might be right. I think I am. Part of it makes me happy I have so much new attention, but how much is too much? Unwanted affection from guys that are into one thing or who are not your type is always horrible, but what if it is from the people you wanted it from. Those you thought it would be good to spend one night with. Yes, I used to be a slut. But do I retrograde back into one now that I am a few pants sizes smaller? I have for some, but it is so shallow. Not that I am not shallow, we all are in some respect, but how shallow have I become with the exercise regiments and watching what I eat? I tried it out this week, on how much food and exercise intake affected my shallowness. I have been eating anything I want. Which has been great. I gained 3-5 pounds and yes my ideals have been going down. So, this next week as I work out like a freak, I will see how they go up. I think it might be more interesting than one can think.
Lestat
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