Ted: I saw you. Fucking. When I woke up. I thought: I'm in hell and this is my punishment, watching Brian Kinney fucking for all eternity. (Queer as Folk, Episode, 104)
Sometimes I don't know what to think or do. I am in a little bit of hell. Just 4 days out of my mental breakdown, and the world is still coming into focus for me. I don't know what to do sometimes. I wrote a letter to a friend tonight, who I hope will stay that way.
Just a little note to anyone that cares...
Corkey Latores died September 5th, 2005. He was loved and adored by many, and he will be missed. I enjoyed him while he lasted, but it is time to move on. I don't think we should call his name anymore, he has left us...let's just leave it at that.
I am trying to find time to write, but it is too hard. My two subjects feel my mind and I am crumbling at the emotions that are coming up in me. I don't know if Genevieve will guide me anymore. Has it been too long, of course the answer is no, but I miss her presence and I am loosing her voice. You are out there dear friend, talk to me. This new piece I am working on, well, lets just say I should take a break from for a bit. Come back to it later. Also, I need to find a composer/lyricist to write the music to my first piece. NO, it's not a musical, it is a play with music, ha ha.
So, anyway, Life is getting back to normal, well as normal as it can be. I was just put onto crew head for Man Who Camed to Dinner. I told them I was designing another show, wtf. Come on I am producing 2 things, directing, designing and acting, how the hell am I suppose to Crew Head a show. I will figure that out some other time.
I am almost finished with my Costume Bible for Seussical. Very Excited!!!
Babs, we must have drinks soon, I miss you babe.
with love,
Lestat
2 comments:
love the new look my love. sorry things have been so rough for you lately. i wish i could be there more for you, you have always been there so much for me and i don't feel i've returned the favor. i have felt you drifting from me, our closeness growing to this huge expanse...i guess it happens to us all. know that even if you do not hear from me or see me, that i am still looking out for you, i'm still keeping as up-to-date as possible, and i still love you very much. i miss your spirit, your voice, the way you see straight through me... like so very few in my life. I hope things get better for you soon my dearest. no one deserves it more...
Thank you my dear. It will all work out I am sure. I hope to God it will. I just need to get my sealegs back. That's all. Take care and hopefully I will talk to you later.
L
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