Seriamente

Ben: What?
Michael: I'm just looking. You are so beautiful.
Ben: You're kind of cute yourself. (QAF Episode: 401)

I think life is harder than you make it. I think really it is just a series of moments that our emotions make complex. A hug is really just a comfort we make into a complex situation. After all these years am I beginning to think the Greeks were right with the three part harmony. Perhaps getting the emotions under control is the answer. Sitting at the pub last night, a friend talked to me about the fact that theatre people are quite subdued because our emotions are all lived out on stage. I thought that, but recently since last October I have been triggered into massive emotions in real life, most of which have emerged because of hugs and a silly little thing called lust, love and other emotions of the similar. When I was young a snake bit me and I was infected with a poison called love that made me a romantic. I have tried to find the antidote but sex doesn't work anymore. Or does it, it makes the pain easier and we have already established that I am Meredith Grey and that going to the pub and picking up a guy is my thing. I have been re-watching the series and yes I am her, only my McDreamy was an asshole who still tries to ruin my life, even though he doesn't do it in public and I am the one who finds out about it so I have to pretend that we are friends and keep my cool...Hating him, scratch that hating anyone is the most exhausting...so I put it away, but then something happens, and I am realize I can't escape the wrath...but then a friend who used to be a love, hugs me tells me he his grateful we are friends and I realize McDreamy has no power...and life goes on.