Emmett: I may be a slut, but at least I'm an honest slut. (QAF Episode: 203)
What happens when happily ever after isn't for you. What if your McDreamy does pic Addison, or your Meridith picks McVet...and although I am no Carrie at the prom with pigs blood on me, I can't help but think I have missed my romance. Oh, believe me I have had the perfect romance, from several guys, its just that my Prince Charming's are all Prince Pricks and I am the slut who has the problem. I am sick and tired of being the dirty slut, because I play that role, and so therefor happily ever after doesn't apply to me. It is my fault, well fine ok, I have been alright with it but now, I am not. If you play me the villain, then that is your problem. I am not the villain or the victim, I am however the lead man of my life, and it is not my fault you don't get to blame me anymore. Or at least not in my mind you don't get to blame me. I am worthy of life, therefor I am worthy of love (i know cue music, lights and get ready for the credits) the unfortunate reality is in real life we don't have the after the credits. If we did perhaps we would realize that the Pretty Woman did go back to being a whore after a year of happiness. But I am still a romantic, I still believe it is out there, and if I have to settle for the mundane, then that is what I have to settle for. So the guy in the armor wasn't mine, but the squire to the left is...does that make the fairy tale less accurate, or is this the new fairy tale, the Shrek, the Happily N'ever After, the Knocked Up...Perhaps that is my fairy tale and I don't get the fire hot passion, the fire hot romance, the longing of a lifetime that I have already have had, isn't for the real romance of forever...perhaps I get baby passion, baby fire and no longing to settle for stability. Someone who will stay with me forever, even if I don't get weak every time they say hey, every time I see them, every time we fight and make up. Perhaps that is not the real romance I want, perhaps I do want the stability of the non fire romance, and perhaps that is ok. I have finally come to realize i need to stop chasing the guys who aren't chasing me...growing up sucks...
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